Ummm, wow....

This is my first attempt a blogging from my phone. Brian has company over, and it's a bit inconvenient for me to have my computer out. So, here we go! I'll check later to see how the format actually looks online. I apologize in advance if it's funky. ;)

So, today was day three on my new dietary supplement. As expected, this was the day I'd really 'feel' different. You know what? It was the strangest thing. Food really didn't interest me today. Wow!

Now, I didn't get to lookin' like I do because I don't like to eat. Duh! I LOVE to eat!! I LOVE cake and ice cream, Mexican food, Dr. Pepper.... I could go on, but I won't. I'll spare you the grosey details. :) You'll love me later.

Anyway, today we had a little family party for Logan's bday. I had all of my favorites available and, overall, I wasn't interested!! That was a big wow for me.

Tomorrow is my first day that I'll have to eat clean. I'm a little nervous about it, bc there is no room for cheaters. I normally find myself snacking on the boys' food as I'm making them dinner. This is going to be a big no-no..... I'm really going to have to bring my 'A' game and pay attenion to what I'm doing to myself.

So my weigh- in this morning? I'm exactly (to the tenth) where I was when I started stuffing my face 2 days ago!! I gained yesterday, and lost it today. Score! I hope this continues!

I'll be back tomorrow. Have a good one!!

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Two steps backward and one step forward?!?

I'm down to 192 days until 'B-day'. I've lost some days out of frustration with a company, out of frustration with myself, and now I am ready to move forward. And then.....

.....STOP!! My dad decides to beg me (in a manly way, of course) to join him in trying this new diet phenomenon. After doing a TON of research, we decide we like the way it sounds, so I decide to go for it with him. I've lost some days waiting on our stuff to get here, BUT, assuming it will work as it should, I'll gain them back by losing quickly (that's funny!)....

In an effort to avoid sounding like I've completely lost my mind, I won't divulge the supplement that I'll be taking along my journey. What I will do is this: I will post daily my weight as it drops and post weekly my measurements as I shrink. Over the next 6 weeks, we ought to be able to see a significant drop in both.

I don't plan to be specific about what and how much I eat, but I WILL report whether I ate "clean" that day. "Clean" will be defined as NO CHEATS.

Once I am seeing success and can testify under personal experience that the plan I'm on is working, THEN I will explain what I've done and how you could do it, too.

For now, know this. I feel like a stuffed pig. I pigged out pizza, coke, candy.....YUCK!!! But, it's all part of the plan. I'll keep you posted and let you know how it's going. =0)

Catching up

A reader (wow, I have readers.... =0) ) informed me yesterday that she noticed I was falling behind! Wow, someone cared what I was saying. That was a pretty big thing for me. So, here I am. 

In the effort of full disclosure, this has been a pretty rough week or so since I posted last. I haven't eaten well, and my workouts have been sporadic at best. I know we shouldn't have excuses, but it's been an emotionally trying week. We've decided to try to buy a house, because we happened on one we fell in love with. Check this out - I found it a year ago, (yes, 1 yr ago) and absolutely LOVED it! That was the time in my life that I was a pretty bad person. I hid things - financial things, and it was a pretty rough time. There was no way I could point the house out to Brian, b/c that would mean we'd have to talk money, and that was a taboo subject. I had ruined our financial profile, and he had no idea. 

So, we're together emotionally AND financially now. No more secrets! We're on the same page working toward the same goals. We're in a good place. As we were perusing listings for a home, I noticed the home I'd found a year ago was still available! We decided to look into what the house had to offer. We've been inside it and still LOVE it. It's amazing, and in our easily affordable price range. Unfortunately, because of my stupidity, our credit is poor. (All my fault....) 

So, I'm totally in love with the house, and desperately would LOVE to be out of our current place - we need the space! But, on paper, we're risky. We're different people than we were when those things were written down. 

I'm having a very difficult time dealing with the guilt of what I've done, and in my mind how it's ruined my family's future. That's a hard pill to swallow. 

Brian's been amazing. The best and most forgiving husband ever, I think. He never makes me feel guilty and gets angry when I get down on myself. I couldn't ask for better. It hurts that my mistakes are keeping him from getting what he deserves to be able to have and to give to his kids. 

Anyway, we're going to see someone at the bank today. She thinks she MAY be able to help, but it's a long shot. I'll feel a lot better and will be able to focus once we get a for sure (whether YAY or NAY) on the house and whether we'll even be able to move any time in the near future! 

Thanks for reading, and I'm sorry this isn't the weight loss inspirational piece you were hoping to open up!